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Seth
Abramson
Martin
Seay
Jim
Simmerman
Bob
Hicok
Alice
Friman
Albert
Goldbarth
G.
K. Wuori
S.
Gruen
John
Brehm
David
Kirby
Lesley
Quinn
Christine
Garren
Natasha
Sajé
Roy
Jacobstein
Rebecca
McClanahan

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G. K. Wuori
Why We Are in Iraq
I AM SAVED BY BEING WORTH NO TROUBLE
This is what I know, then, my name being Franklin
McCormick, a man of uncertain status in that old mans life except
that I lived in a shed on his farm and gave him such labors as I could.
It was an exchange, a salvation for my benefit. The instinct to reform
never dies in any of us. Like some virtuous corrosion it eats away at
a lifetime of fucking up.
Anyway, even in these modern times a citizenry
can run you out of town (which they did to me) and tell you that if
you come back they will chop you down to something that could fit in
a Baggie and be sold as a smokeable pleasure. The old man, though, took
the measure of me and the measure of his civic kin and said, Hes
hardly worth your trouble. I will take him in and see to such improvement
as is still possible.
I kept the old mans ancient Farmall running,
kept the plows, cultivator, and discs tight where they needed to be
that. I oiled, lubed, removed rust, added paint. I enjoyed fencing in
three acres for some horses that never came, my skills with board, hammer,
saw, and level like a secret Id kept from myself for many, many
years. During haying he brought in some Mexican migrants while I planted
myself in the loft of the barn and stacked hundreds, maybe thousands
of bales in tight patterns. My sweat drained by the gallon, making room,
I hoped, for my shrunken soul to expand back into a useable form. I
fetched his eggs and chopped the heads off his chickens when the town
ladies came by for fresh. When he decided he no longer wanted to offer
those commodities, I conveyed that to those fine ladies. They rewarded
my courtesies with bad manners and a derision I could only assume Id
earned. To be brief, I was a mess. I was a hamster running on a broken
wheel. My morals, you see, Id left them out on a highway somewhere
years before.
REFORM IS A KISS FROM A BLIND WHORE,
AND I SMOOCHED HER GOOD
At night, though, I had my bottle and I had
my shed and I had the magazines the old man got for me at garage sales.
At around six oclock Id go to the back door of the house,
and hed give me a plate of food (he could cook; it was all right)
that I might eat on the steps or under a tree or back at my shed if
it was cold or bad weather. Usually, I didnt eat at any other
time during the day because I needed some drinks in me to tolerate the
food. As might seem obvious, I try to be a scheduled man.
Here is how my reform came about, though I must
issue a warning as to nastiness and general human depravity. Reform
is a kiss from a blind whore, and I smooched her good, but the result
came out as ugly as a dead chicken. Maybe Im just being cautious
here because so often we think that success has to be beautiful.
Just about any time Id convince myself
the old man was a true farmer.my work, thus, true, maybe good.the boys
showed up. They did that. Not real frequent, the two brothers, but enough
so that I knew I was only a game in progress, that farm like a stage
set that has nothing to do with the play going on.
Corky stood in at about my height.not quite
as tall as the antique musket my pop fired at me one time, but about
as hard as a side of beef; one tough Bohemian, you see. His brother,
though, Baker his name, hes got tar for a heart and a septic tank
for a mouth, a boy I might say with no regard to accuracy, about ten
feet tall with hands the size of tires on one of those small imported
cars. Usually, when they came by, theyd have a girl with them,
one of those heavy girls with a sweet face and too much makeup, one
of those girls who look for meanness the way a fly looks for shit, then
wail and whine when they find it. I believe she found enjoyment in treating
me like an empty Coke can. I didnt mind. Id had my attention
years before and hadnt much cared for it. One thing, too, though,
it wasnt ever clear if she was Corkys girl or Bakers
girl. Boys like that, you know, they fuck anything handy, with possession
about as important as whose socks you pull out of the dryer to put on.
I RARELY BLEED, AND I ALWAYS HEAL
The old mans name was Harrison Whitehead,
and you might think Id have left after the first time he beat
me or put it to me in the dark place, but were ten miles from
town, first of all, and, second of all, I cant go to town (as
I already said). That was one of those informal things where they said
to me that if I stayed out of that precise geographic circumlocution,
theyd see to it that nobody put me in a hole or a fire pit or
one of those leaf choppers, so I agreed to that.
But the old man had this decency streak to him,
too, with a troubling little burp to it so you could see he had to do
some things that made him sadnasty things, sure, only sometimes
he had it in his eyes that if certain things were different, theyd
by God be better. Which is a roundabout way of saying that I rarely
bleed, and I always heal, and if it made him feel better to do to me
what he couldnt do to Corky and Baker, well, he fed me and gave
me a place to stay and saw to it that I had work we both hoped might
make me a better person.
They say Mr. Whitehead had kids, but I never
saw them. Maybe he wasnt a good father. Maybe he beat his kids
until they grew up and could move away and feel happy about never sending
Christmas cards and all of that, or visiting. More than once, however,
I saw him look on Corky or Baker or their loopy slut with real affection,
whatever their business, like maybe he wished they had something more
than just business to do, something besides pulling their van up to
that Wal-Mart-Always-Low-Prices shed out where the old outhouse used
to be. I never knew whether they put things in there or took them out,
but I knew what it all was because in that early time when Mr. Whitehead
thought there was more to me than there was, he said maybe I could be
like his foreman, so he gave me the keys to everything. Anyway, he never
took those keys back.
I, however, learned to be careful.
One night I happened to wander a little too
close to the place, and Baker asked me if I wanted to see my nose coming
out of my belly button, and I said, no, sir, I dont believe so,
even though Mr. Whitehead was right there and said to Baker, Ease
off, son. Hes just my drunk. Half the time he doesnt know
his dick from his shoelaces.
There was truth to that, even though neither
my dick nor my shoelaces had ever failed me. Nor had my eyes, and I
knew ammonium nitrate when I saw it. I knew all the combinations, too,
as to how you could construct explosive statements with it, sentence
completions of points made in terrible ways. Those boys, though, they
must not be mistaken for the kinds of Terrorists-in-Our-Time that haunt
the nightly news you can trust. They were small merchants (little
people, as they say; salt of the earth), purveyors
of resolved grievances like something put under someones car or
set into the tank of his toilet orthis does happen; you need to
believe itslipped into his kids lunchbox when that sentence
needs to be completed in a most terrible and unforgivable way. Quite
honestly, I dont think your average person out there with credit
cards and regularly scheduled colonoscopies understands how much commitment
to vengeance there is resting just below the surface of their Dancing
Pebbles condo development. Of course, being fair (as my old professors
used to say was always how we must behave), I cant say as how
I truly knew the disposition of those incendiary commodities
in the Wal-Mart-Always-Low-Prices shed. I mean, Mr. Harrison Whitehead
might have been sending fertilizer to the poor folks in some of them
African countries while I sat in my shack and drank Corbys and
read old Family Circle magazines.
I think fairness is all right if youve
got raffia for brains.
YOU MIGHT SAY A NAKED MAN HAS
REASON TO BE SECRETIVE
About my redemption, though, the reform that
took me out of a life of weakness and excuses and into a situation of
fulfilled purposes, that happened quickly, beginning one night and ending
the next.
The beginning I hold in sharp recall.a hot night,
terribly so even at ten oclock when I took my clothes off and
went for a walk out in the bean field (soybeans, thirty-six acres right
near the old feedlot from Mr. Whiteheads beefing days). Beans
are not tall so I thought I had a chance to catch a breeze maybe, and
of course there wasnt anyone to see me even if they could in the
dark, like soldiers with them green goggles that can show hearts beating
inside certain repugnant people. Generally, I make my public appearances
in a fully clothed state, but, as I said, I needed cooling.
Whereby enters luck then, my luck, which I have
had precious little of these recent years. I mean I knew the van as
it came in, the boys Corky and Baker for sure, along with that girl
who, I like to believe, felt that at the right time she could pull morality
and right behavior out of at least one of those boys, enough so for
a life with an address and bills to pay and neighbors to condemn or
praise as the need arose. I never doubted her complete awareness of
the shady dealings of those boys, but Id also seen her clean out
that van on occasion, or tell Baker to tuck his shirt in. One time she
took a brush out of her purse and brushed Corkys hair. I decided
she had an impulse toward waking up at dawn instead of going to bed
then, and that she was the type who would find a job waitressing to
be a step in some right direction.
With not a whole lot going on in a bean field
at ten oclock at night, I went behind the machine shed, where
I could see the back of the house and whatever activity might transpire.
I had not forgotten Bakers threats, though, so I stuck to the
heavy shadows. You might say a naked man has reason to be secretive.
Mr. Whitehead stood on his back steps, his hands
on his hips. I heard no words of welcome, but I could see the girl standing
there and could see Corky hand Mr. Whitehead the pistol gun, which he
took. Words floated around that I could not make out, but Mr. Whitehead
suddenly threw the pistol gun to the ground and said real loud, This
is not necessary.
It has been made necessary, sir,
the boy Corky said.
Words came out of the girl then, and she raised
her arms up in the air like she had a point to make and theyd
all better damn well hear it. She poked a finger onto Corkys chest,
waved her other hand in front of Bakers face, then looked as though
she were about to walk off.
Baker, though, would tolerate no defections
from whatever drove their agenda.
Quickly, he had that girl on the ground. He
pulled and ripped and tugged at her until she was naked, and I knew
it had nothing to do with her being sticky hot in all that humidity,
though she probably was. Im sure we all were. He put his foot
then on her chest, and I could see her struggle against that; futile,
as they say, with Baker like some bridge pillar holding her down.
I sensed depravity in the making because Id
seen it before. Usually, it doesnt happen on stage or on camera,
or in the great places where the world might add to its useful lessons.
Often, the worst things happen in small places.
I saw a woman raped on a playground swing one
time, and myself beat a man senseless as he stood in one of those old
telephone booths with a roof and a door. Children sometimes have their
most terrible defeats sitting in the back seat of a car, an addled parent
turning a minor desire into ribbons of trash. A good friend of mine
once died in a dirty gas station bathroom because he misjudged how high
he needed to be. The emergency boys came for him but got delayed waiting
at a sixtrack railroad crossing for two trains to pass. I think that
was in Texas. Yes, it was.
POSSIBLY ARTWORK IN ITS GRITTIEST FORMAT
Corky picked that pistol gun up off the ground
and shot the girl right in the head. I saw him do it. He shifted that
pistol gun from his left hand to his right, jacked a shell into the
chamber, and took out one eye and all of her memories.
This deed surprised me since I have always thought
of Baker as the mean one, as the maker of heinous perdition. Of course
he aided this deed; he did that. His foot made escape and any other
hopeful thoughts impossible for that girl, whose sins I could not possibly
know. Still, I thought this Corky worth watching (avoiding) with about
the same diligence as Id previously regarded Baker.
Mr. Whiteheads sins I might have taken
a guess at, though I would not have guessed them worthy of Corkys
grabbing Mr. Whitehead by his hair, jamming the pistol gun so hard into
his mouth he knocked two teeth out, and pulling the trigger.
Should I have seen a purpose in all this? A
plan? A statement of goals and objectives?
That girl now had herself stretched out on the
ground with Mr. Whitehead sprawled on the steps above her. The word
tableau came to mind (I have done theater work in the past, along
with pageants and festivals, so I understand display), but since I had
no idea what the overall story was, I could only view the scene as that:
a scene, possibly artwork in its grittiest format. Something from the
Spanish Civil War occurred to me, but my mind often stops short in fleshing
out its revelations.
Maybe they wanted to make Mr. Whitehead look
like he and that poor girl had done about all they could do with most
of it not having the kind of consequences you brag about over Thanksgiving
dinner (for which Mr. Whitehead made me sausage and fried potatoes last
year) since I heard the word pregnant shouted out by one of the
boys. A young girl knocked up by an old man always plays well on the
streets and in the bars and diners in town, so that might have been
the song they wanted to playit happens around here, some people
saying its the weather or too many of those old farmers with their
wives dying off too soon, so Mr. Whitehead got involved, as we used
to say, included himself into a terrible corner to where he could only
kill her and kill himself.
No one in the world had to think anything different.
THE IMAGINATION GIVES NO QUARTER
DURING A PERILOUS TIME
Except for me, far more sober than I usually
was at that time of night. I saw it all and saw no suicide in what I
saw. What I thought pretty quick, though, was that those boys knew all
about Mr. Whiteheads drinking man, and they knew where I lived
and knew all about my harmful habits, which led me to think I could
run back and jump into my cot and look so passed out, I would have missed
the true end of the world and thus represented no threat of witness
to anyone, although they might kill me anyway, because you just never
knew what a sleeping drunk might have seen. Once youve arranged
for two dead bodies, as they say, there cant be much stopping
you from arranging a third.
Or they could have called the sheriff.
Look what we have found, the
boy Corky might say. This drunk here has done in poor Mr. Whitehead
and his young companion.
Yes, yes, the sheriff might say.
We know this boy and his ways. We have dealt with him before and
should have seen this coming.
As you have dealt with us, Corky
might add, and while it is not of our nature generally to give
assistance to the personnel of law enforcement, we are not supporters
of murder or its foul comradesmaiming and torture.
The imagination, as you can see, gives no quarter
during a perilous time.
Or I could take off, which would get me out
of harms way during those initial moments, but a naked man attracts
attention, so it wouldnt be long before those boys would know
I had seen all and was now on the run from them, a key to a future they
had no wish to wish upon themselves.
Frankly, I have to confess a moments delight
as I realized how coolly my mind did its research, how alternatives
rose and fell like bullets on a businessmans PowerPoint speech.
Something stirred within, and I did not think it all bad.
Nevertheless, I was scared. I was naked. I ran.
I ran right into Corky and Baker.
I have made my allusions, of course, hints as to a time when I was substantially
more than I am now, when twenty thousand bottles of beer had yet to
take their toll and I had not become pharmaceutically degraded like
some street urchin selling looks at her toes for a buck a wiggle.
That is, something woke up in me, the tough
guy no longer at rest. It was not a sanguine reacquaintance, because
this had turned into a squeamish night.
Our unfortunate meeting took place inside the
machine shed, where I went because I knew Mr. Whitehead had some overalls
in there along with some boots and even some old hats. I also had a
good idea that, once those boys had recovered from the early moments
of life taking, they would head for my shack. That seemed something
you could bet your 401(k) on.
My mistake. Just as I walked into the back door
of the machine shed, they came in the frontsearching for sharp
tools, one small overhead light snapped on with no worries about confronting
anything other than the proper implements for burying old men and young
girls. They wanted disappearance, to make of that backdoor scene nothing
more than an entrance to a house now strangely empty.
Oh, shit, Corky said. The
drunk is naked.
I might have imagined a better greeting, but
I could not rebut the accuracy of what he said. Instead, I glanced upon
an old scythe ready to hand, a tool that had belonged to Mr. Whiteheads
grandfather. I picked up that tool and no longer felt quite so naked.
I also thought that boy lacking in certain basic courtesies.
You got the gun? Corky said to Baker.
I thought you had the gun, Baker
said.
I left it on the ground near the van,
Corky said.
Dont need a gun for this little
shit, Baker said. He laughed then, but I did not think this was
an evening appropriate to humor.
Baker picked up a piece of steel pipe and came
at meeight, ten steps. The shed was not big. Along about step
six or nine, he picked up a length of truck chain. Surprisingly, I took
that as an encouraging sign in that he was thinking of me as something
more than a tick to squeeze until the blood sack popped.
Laughing again, he swung that chain through
the air, making a whooshwhoosh soundpretty scary, maybe like a
swarm of bats about to give your face a perky new glow like you see
on some of those cosmetic commercials. I did not like that laughter.
For as much as I have forgotten my family, sold out my education, done
little good for this world and my time in it, I required before my death
at least the small honor they give the condemned, whereby they can eat
what they like or watch television past lights out. I did not deserve
mockery. Do any of us?
I AM FULLY WASHABLE
With Bakers arm in the air twirling that
chain, I drew upon a great deal of strength and some old instincts and
upswung that grandfathers scythe and cut off Bakers shoulder.
There was a loud Jesus! from Corky
as the momentum of Bakers chain sent it back to Corky and caught
him across his chest. Just a blow, neither fatal nor injurious. As Baker
turned and fell to the floor, the blood spurting from his upper torso
caught me full on my nudity.
I thought then, Well, at least I am fully
washable.
I also did not forget Corky, something I was
trained to do at one time, in that you never absent yourself from all
angles of a crisis simply because one of those angles was now buffed
smooth.
Baker, of course, was studying death on the
floor by then and no doubt not liking the lesson. He no longer threatened
me, and I could see that, but Corky, nothing in his hands at all, came
slowly toward me, his arms and legs in one of those goofy fighting postures
you see in the Chinese movies.
If youll wait just a few minutes,
I felt like saying, Ill be pretty worthless and pretty easy.
I did not say that, but my legs by then had
turned soft, and a shaking started in my belly that I knew would be
in my arms and legs and head before longthe boozers firestorm.
Truth is, that performance with Baker had come from naught that I could
trace, like learning suddenly that you can play the piano and everybody
knew it but had never told you. My history might belie that, but it
had been the present Id just sliced into the ground, not the past.
Corky released one of them screams I think they
teach you how to do, and all I recall seeing in that moment were the
bottoms of his boots coming at my head. I think I could read the name
of his boot company on his soles, but many companies make shoes, so
I dont remember the name.
Bloody and naked and rather stupidly wondering
if Mr. Whitehead had picked up any new magazines lately, I swung that
scythe without even knowing whether I was putting the blade or the handle
toward Corky. My fighting didnt approach what I used to be able
to do in my solid years. Still, I was awfully dangerouspanic using
instinct as a tool.
As Corky flew toward me like some human missile
born not of woman but of engineering design, I whirled and ducked with
both bladder and bowel wide opena disgusting wimp, I thought,
a wuss in full flower. Unfortunately for Corky, that scythe had no conscience,
only function, nor did it ever feel embarrassment. It cleaved him lengthwise
from his crotch to the crown of his head.
YOUVE KILLED US BOTH!
Youve killed us both! Baker
shouted from his wounded posture on the ground, his blood congealing
into a mound of oats spilled from a nearby sack.
I was scared, I said, near
decrepit with terrible fears. You needed to kill me because of what
I saw.
Yes, we did, Baker said. We
would not, however, have chopped and sliced you like a pound of lunch
meat on sale at a convenience store.
Death wants only endings, I said.
It doesnt have much preference for methodologies.
I think youre not as stupid as Harry
always said.
Thank you.
But I believe things are looking bad for
you now, Baker went on. Four dead and one alive never speaks
well for the living one.
Except that hes not one of the four,
I said.
You will need a story, said Baker.
I thought this talk with Baker quite strange.
I stood before him covered in his own blood, and he could see that.
He could see as well his arm and a good part of his shoulder lying across
his belly. That he could talk through all that pain made me realize
his toughness had been no myth.
I believe I will consult the truth,
I said.
As will others, said Baker.
I know that.
No one will come looking for us,
Baker said. Nor the girl. She has no name and her only address
is from a drivers license she stole. I would bury us, thats
what I would do, then take the van and leave it somewheres. Mr. Harry,
youll say, took his own life. Thats the scene we left him
in, by the way. He is prepared for your story.
Tears, as I recall, ran down Bakers face
as he said these things. I supposed he didnt want to die, and
the prospect saddened him.
His analysis, though, spun from his agony, I
could not disagree with that. If in fact I got rid of these bodies quickly,
I might be able to conjoin the truth with all manner of fancy and go
back to being only a half or a quarter of a person. I was (or would
be) the only witnessthe historians worst-case authority.
IT IS HARD TO CHOOSE BETWEEN COMPETING SHAMES
The van gave me no trouble. Early the next morning
I stepped around Mr. Whitehead and went into his house and got myself
washed up and got some clothes on, then I drove the van up to the Chrysler
plant about twenty miles away and parked it with several hundred employee
cars. I stole a car in that parking lot and drove it back to the edge
of town, where I left it, hitched a ride to within about a mile of the
farm with a teenage girl as bold as she was stupid, and found myself
back at the farm with some morning still to go.
Sounds like a lot of things went my way, but
nothing in all that was actually very hard to pull off, except getting
the ride out of town. I dont suppose I will raise more ire than
Ive already raised, however, if I say that it has never been hard
to find bold and stupid teenage girls.
I had work to do, naturally. I went over to
the old silo next to the barn and dug a hole. Next to the hole lay a
pile of old silage Id gradually been shoveling into the silo.
Mr. Whitehead had told me to put the front-end loader on the Farmall
and get the job done quickly, but he said he didnt mind my judgments
when necessary. Mostly, these later years have found me pretty scared
of machines.
So I dug, the work hard and hot with that day
no cooler than the one before. By evening, though, I had a hole that
fit those kids, a hole I could later pile the silage on for prevention
of detection. I got the wheelbarrow then and loaded the young girl onto
it and put her in the hole, her dead (yes) weight testing my muscles
but not blinding me to that sweet face or the unstable back of her head,
slightly wobbly with destruction. I said words for her, too, not being
a callous man. I knew nothing about her, but I did recommend her for
a fair judgment. Even the worst among us deserve that, and she might
well have been far better than the worst. No ones daughter should
go to her rest without a gentle word or two on her behalf.
Corky, as you might expect, Id have liked
to avoid, but I couldnt do that. Along with his two big parts,
I had to remove most of his innards from the floor of the machine shed,
a nauseating job. All of it, all these hours I found distasteful, but
I had committed myself to do the best I could to boil everything down
to the suicide of a lonely old man. If Mr. Whitehead had to die under
despicable circumstances, it seemed better to me to have the world think
hed done unto himself than that hed undergone a terrible
murder. It is hard to choose between competing shames, though.
After putting some dirt on top of the girl,
I laid Corky down in that hole. I said words for him, too, mostly a
suggestion that someone so completely bad no doubt had a few good deeds
hidden away somewhere, enough at least to earn him a cool glass of water
once in awhile in the hot place. That seemed fair.
Baker, however, surprised me.
Although Id been able to get him into
the wheelbarrow and move him easily enough, he groaned as I put him
into the hole, then opened his eyes.
Might you wait a bit? he said.
Crap Jesus! I said. I might have
shouted.
Only me, said Baker.
Why havent you died yet? I
said.
I think your clean cut both severed and
sealed me. I can feel my blood pump against all these wounds but it
seems not to be draining away real quick.
You hurting? I said.
I must have slept in school when they
gave out all the words for pain. Its a pisser. Thats the
best I can do.
Id have hoped you out of that by
now, I said.
You got that old man all set? Baker
said.
I dropped a shovel full of dirt down into the
hole near Bakers shoes. A good four feet of hole was between him
and the top. I had dug deep so that those three might rest easy with
only biology for companionship. Still, there seemed reason to hurry.
I had much to do in the machine shed especially, and nearly as much
by the old man and the back steps.
Another shovel full went in.
Youve had some education, I believe,
Baker said.
I got my college degree before my troubles
took me away from what I knew, I said.
Me and Corky, you know, we went to community
college, Baker said.
So we are all just troubled then,
I said, and not stupid.
Youre a hard-working man,
Baker said. Pointing up at the dirt piling on around him, he added,
But youve put a heaviness on me. Its getting hard
to breathe.
Indeed, I had that hole level with dirt from
about his waist on down to his feet. Scatterings of dirt speckled his
chest and his face, and I felt bad about that. We were both in a bad
way, and I had always tried to be mannerly to people. I got on my knees
then and used my hankie to dust some of that dirt from his face.
I thank you for that, he said.
I went into the barn then and got a piece of
plywood that was about the width of the hole. I pushed it in there to
make something of a barrier between Bakers head and the rest of
the dirt. Feeling disposed to wait as long as decency allowed, I began
piling the smelly silage on the part of the hole Id already filled
in.
Are you still alive? I asked once.
I believe I have pissed myself,
Baker said. Thats an embarrassment, though I dont
suppose it matters.in the long run.
Baker, I began, you are nothing
but long run now and free of all worries over such things as job loss,
heartbreak, cancer, and keeping yourself out of jail. Ill be back.
FOREMAN IN CHARGE OF A FOUL CONSTRUCTION
Sunset had the rear of the house in shadow,
but I could still see what needed doing. Mr. Whitehead, I thought, was
already in a convincing posture for a man whod done himself. Using
a stick, I slid the pistol gun over closer to his right hand and noticed
as well that his wound dressed out consistent with how a gun to the
mouth might have things. Those broken teeth, too, suggested hed
brought that gun up to his mouth just quick and let it go. A small spatter
of blood on the back porch and the door looked about the way they ought
to look for such a sad event. Without much trouble I moved a small pile
of gravel soiled by the girls wound, and then touched up the scene
in a general way.
I had to laugh then. I honestly did. It all
seemed so goofy to be acting out like someone on a canceled television
showfoul deeds and their concealment, you knowthe hero judicious
in fuzzing up the evidence of murders he has not committed. Still, I
did it. I arranged, I washed, I organized, and I made things look more
farmlike than any farm actually looks. You have to realize, too, that
a good country cop has no time to look beneath things that are obvious
on the surface, especially, in my case, when the chief detective in
the sheriffs office has all the intelligence of a knuckle.
So I laughed at myself, a drunk and weakling
who, only the day before and many days before that, had let an old man
beat me and bugger me and give me cheap booze and meals and used magazines
and a buggy shack, and all I had to do was make his farm look like a
farm so that he could conduct business with the likes of Corky and Baker.
A happy arrangement for a time, yet there I stood, foreman at last in
charge of a foul construction.
By midnight I had only the grave to finish up
and enough light from a full moon to do it by.
I removed the plywood board near Baker then
and picked up the shovel and began shoveling dirt into that unfortunate
trios final rest.
Oh no, Baker groaned as the dirt
began to fall.
I could wait no longer.
G. K. WUORI is the author of sixty stories published throughout the
world. A Pushcart Prize winner and recipient of an Illinois Arts Council
Fellowship, he has had work appear in the Miwsouri Review, Shenandoah,
and many other fine literary publications. His story collection, Nude
in Tub, was a New Voices Award nominee by the Quality Paperback
Book Club, and his novel, An American Outrage, was Foreward Magazines
Book of the Year in fiction. He currently lives in Sycamore, Illinois,
where he writes a monthly column called Cold Iron at www.gkwuori.com.
The title of this story owes a shameless debt to Norman Mailer.
Why We Are in Iraq appears in our Winter
2006 issue.
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